loops & loops

I have a cat in my room. I like to stare at it as it smiles back at me. I always wonder what it would say to me when it sees me here, sitting down upon my bed, every night with my computer on while the radio belts out love tunes every night at this particular time.

It is always smiling; brightly coloured so I imagine it would spout happy and reassuring thoughts. It sees me waking up the middle of the night as I toss and turn in the dark. Although it is pitch black, I am sure it can see me for we all know cats can see in darkness. It probably isn't very good feng sui as I am born in the year of the rat and it is a cat. It sits there, on the table top, staring at me, toying with me. Perhaps it is not that good natured after all, in its eyes, I might just be a prey as it watches on.

It is represents shades of nature coated in crimson, night, sun, orange, snow, sky and grass. It represents a lot of things depending on my mood. Often I watch southpark in my room and I think it is laughing with me at the jokes which we understand. It smiles in enjoyment at the songs I play. Then again, I still think it could just be laughing at me. I am still in two minds over this. I will need to observe this cat’s behaviour a little bit more.

Its eyes are close so it can't see but that might just be a guise to keep me unaware. Is it a friend or is it foe? I am struck by my indecision. But it seems to be that way in all manners in life so I guess you just have to stick it out and hope for the best. I read this in a Times bookstore the other day. “Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans.” I like that phase. The unpredictability of it all. It makes life more interesting, more fun, more ups and more downs. Just like this cat. I don't know how it is gonna pan out.

I will sing to it more songs and we will see how it goes.